these are the truest, kindest, most sincere words I ever wrote
I found you
in a strange dark woods
woods of questioning
what is truth?
what is love?
what is enough?
what is right or wrong?
what are the rules to being loved,
to being safe?
i found you as a child
asking questions that never were answered
questions that are difficult to answer
questions that are dark and sharp and rough, with giant spikes twisting around on all sides
My father used to ask me the same things
he asked me to write an essay about it
he asked me because he didn’t know how to love. He asked me if I knew
I travelled the world and brought him things. I changed myself so I would be kinder, stronger, smarter, braver, more loving
he said it was all wrong
finally, I stopped and just hurt about it
and gave him my broken heart.
he ignored me completely
so boy, in the woods,
that is all I have for you
the story of my search
and a deafening silence
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