Who am I today?
Let me explain how it works:
I want something,
And I come close
But it always slips away
And I beg and cry and scream for it
Later to find that I did not want it, not truly
And instead, someone had wanted me, had convinced me without my knowing, and all my crying was my skillful escape of a situation I did not want.
And the pain was the breaking of my own consciousness as I become more aware of my true self and desires and not the desires of others which I believed to be my own
So the only question I have now is,
who am I today?