I went to the new condo build today
I walked around the empty pristine rooms
I couldn’t stop the shadows of a family that never was from moving in
Girls running around
A partner sleeping here
In sadness I closed the door and carried out different plans
I walked by a playground outside
I came home and drank alone
I didn’t know what to do with myself
I watched a memory as if from a home video of me sitting in the backyard watching fireworks on a warm July night
I could feel him cherishing me like a child but then pulling away
Like my dad would have done
And now I know why you felt like home
An absent home where love was unpredictable
I searched for a home within a home
All my relationships seem so deep
Oh I saved his life oh he was abused
But all it means is that my world is broken people
For once you are simple and that is very deep to me.