After all this,

I never learned how to love

I never learned how to give what I do not have

How to take what was stolen already

I learned how to not lie

How to hold the truth through the fight

I battled the world for a long time

For a long long time

It doesn’t want me to know what I am

I let go of things I knew were real

Only to panic and search for them again

I am

memory

I am voice

I am movement I am change I am like water I am strength

I am your leader I am the fortune teller I am becoming

I am the silence of the forest

I am the peace of letting go

I am everywhere you can’t find because I am your searching