At last

At last I say goodbye

to the most beautiful house in Medellín

Goodbye to my mother

How I wished you were full and round

full of light and not full of hunger

when you ate the softest parts of my chest

the way you ate bread alone at night secretly

after denying yourself dinner

because you would rather see your family eat

and you were feeling too heavy lately

How I wish your wisdom was true

and not this confusing misleading path to hell

So many times I wanted to be reborn by your tenderness

I wanted a mother to teach me things

and hold my hands

and show me love when I didn’t know what it was

Someone to tell me what life was about

You always told me I just never heard you

Power

power

I tried to be like you but I could never bring myself

to claim that kind of power over anyone including you

and I felt so ashamed