Mother Wound

I spoke to my inner child because she was hurting that she didn’t have a loving mother. I explained to her as if warning her before it happens for the first time. I said, my darling, I have to tell you something difficult. Your mom has mental health problems, she’s going to be emotionally volatile and sometimes punish you for no reason. It will be terrifying. None of it will be your fault. Even if it makes you angry or hurts you know that it’s something your mom is going through. You won’t be able to help her and that’s not your job. I know it’s heartbreaking to realize someone you love is broken in this way and I’m so sorry.

We don’t conquer our abusers by hurting them more. We conquer them by accepting the love that they never allowed themselves to receive.

To stop seeing my mom as evil and see her as a four year old. So much of what we categorize as evil is actually a child with adult powers.