Into the ground

He’s sleeping next to me

So I try not to love you anymore

But sometimes I get tired of trying

And lose my temper,

Apologize in the morning

You don’t really know what desperation looks like

Until you’re with the wrong person

Wishing they were someone else

Hiding your feelings

Until you bury yourself

Inch by inch

Into the unforgiving ground

So here is my confession

That he will never read

Because I’m “starting over”

Because of kindness

Because of your year of silence

And my inability to forgive you