Blue rock

I quietly desired for the freedom I should not want.

The secrets I kept from myself

I am one small body

That shrinks with growing loneliness

I told him no

I walked in the river alone

Ankle deep

My feet tentatively curled around round rocks

With every step forward

I made myself not useful for you any longer

There was no more dancing

No more music

No more flying to the moon

Just dreams of solitude

That drive me mad

I found a blue rock

I kept it

And I almost prayed