Pretending

It’s hard to be the only broken hearted in paradise

The only one crying on the beach

Nobody really cares about anything

I only remember floating underwater

And dancing

Trying to remember how to smile

Making friends like it’s easy

But at night when I unlock the door

and no one’s home

I will fight myself through the night

To stop pretending

That I don’t need anyone

I remember shutting the door

When he wanted to play with his sister

Because I had more important things to do

Stop pretending that you can achieve something

That can make you feel better

Stop trying to move on

And just love him

It was always so hard to love him