Scorpio Venus

By legend, scorpio was an assassin, hired to kill Odin, and right the injustice that he deserved. On the other hand, Venus is the planet of love. Those born with a scorpio Venus doesn’t experience love as straightforwardly and naturally as most others and is considered to be in at a disadvantageous position.

How does an assassin experience love? I am always sharpening and preparing my weapons, searching for my target, picking up the clues left by him. I need to know his limits, his weaknesses. What are the boundaries of love, what are the truths that are unbreakable? Does love end with lies, betrayal, abuse, death, neglect? I have trouble understanding its boundless nature. How can something infinite exist in a finite world? In a world with war, crime, and other things that torture me from the inside out.

I am smart and strong and cunning. I can learn the rules of any game and win. But this game takes me to unfamiliar territory. There is a point with no rules, no winning or losing, only surrender, I am told by those who are wiser than me. What is surrender to a warrior?

I was born to kill, but would die for love. The only definition of love that can possibly be true is that you’d be willing to die for someone. And I know this not because it makes sense through logic but because I have lived it.

I live it always, it stays alive in my heart. The danger and sacrifice and courage and loss and devastation and curse of knowing that the thing I live for is the only thing that will kill me. When I say I love you I mean that I would die for you, that I have overcome my fear of dying.