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Simple dance
I was thinking that it might be good to love somebody I’m afraid of a lot of things that didn’t bother me before I work harder now to feel at peace It’s not exciting it’s just work All the things I used to run away from look good to me now So maybe I will…
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Needy
I was thinking about how I had this rejection wound from my father and the thought of dating someone in a real way made me terrified of rejection. I was trying to help myself face this, I had enough self esteem to know that it’s possible I won’t be rejected but also I couldn’t self…
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Animal dreams
You can judge me, but judgement is a kind of fantasy. You’re living in a fantasy that my world is different from your world, how the things I’m afraid of would somehow be less scary to you in your world. That the same monster is a different monster and A is not A. My world,…
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Not me
I remember getting an A for the first time in grade 4, and it felt so amazing that I started to be addicted to achievement. My brother came in my room and wanted to play but I yelled at him to go away because I wanted to study to achieve more because that was the…
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Warrior of love
My brother died and went somewhere Somewhere that taught me how to sit in the darkness for days and be quiet and without fear He went somewhere kind Somewhere safe And he keeps me safe today still Because I remember to be strong and be sad at the right time He showed me this when…
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Here
I’m on the balcony of an Airbnb in San José, Costa Rica. The breeze is cool, the sky is blue, low mountains with villages in the backdrop of a half modern, half rustic, but socially progressive Latin American country. It’s the eve of the age of Aquarius. My landlord came to check if I was…
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Bad feminist
I think I’m just going to have to keep forgiving myself for being a bad feminist. For every time I catch myself comparing myself with another woman or wishing another woman wasn’t so successful or skinny or popular or something better than me. I have to keep flowing with the waves of my confidence, as…